I posted this on my facebook page, but I wanted to share with you all as well. Here are my thoughts on Thanksgiving this year... Happy Thanksgiving!
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So here we are, a few days before Thanksgiving, and I am pondering what it is I am thankful for. I find myself going to the usual list of my kids, my family, my health, etc. And yet there is so much more than that. I started thinking about lots of things in my life and found that when I look at things a little more deeply, perhaps my annoyances are really my blessings.
I am thankful for not sleeping through the night. There is a little boy in this house who has problems sometimes sleeping through the night. He calls out sometimes several times a night for his mom. How thankful I am to be that person. Adoption is very random. He could be in another home calling out for someone else. How fortunate I am to be the one woken several times some nights to comfort him!
I am thankful for arguing with my daughter. For a little girl who can be one of the most stubborn people I have ever met. We go head to head many times a week over what she will wear, what she needs to eat, or why she needs to give something back to her brother. Her stubborness will serve her so well in the future. I am so thankful that I have been given the gift of being able to guide her through her life. It could have been anyone else whose file was in a stack on someone's desk. I, however, was the one chosen to be her mom. My God! What did I do to be so lucky?
I am thankful for a husband who is my complete opposite. I am thankful for his neatnic ways, for how he gently asks, for example, if I will have time to get to the vacuuming tomorrow. I usually answer him in an annoyed tone, telling him I will get to it when I get to it. I am so fortunate that he accepts me the way I am, my annoyed tone, the way I can't look at him when I am mad at him, the way he asks me what's wrong, the way I tell him nothing, and the way he says I know you better than that, what did I do. How unbelievably lucky I am to have someone who takes the good with the bad, even when I sometimes the bad is much more than the good.
I am thankful for a grandmother who will call me and ask if I have select-a-size paper towels, and if I wouldn't mind coming over to call in her prescription because she can't read the numbers on the bottle anymore, and by the way, can I stop at the store and pick up some bacon on the way. I get to listen to her complain about how she doesn't like where she lives, her eyes are failing, and she can't hear much of what I say if I don't yell it. My grandmother lives close to me, tells my kids that she loves them, and lights up when she sees them. She spoils them with lollypops and allowing them to use the controls on her automatic chair while she is sitting in it. I have the gift of getting to know my grandmother when I am old enough to appreciate her.
I am thankful for a 14 year old dog who pees on the carpet and a 12 year old dog who barks too much. The 14 year old is a good, good dog who just can't hold it anymore. She is stubborn, but sweet. The 12 year old is loud, but makes me laugh. I am so lucky to have had the companionship of these two dogs for so long.
I am thankful for a dirty house, laundry that never stops piling up, and a sink full of dishes that seems to multiply. I have a house to live in, clothes to wear, and food to eat.
I am thankful that money is tight. I have the luxury of choosing to stay home and making that money tight.
I am thankful that I am terrified to put my child on the school bus next year to go to kindergarten. She has the opportunity to attend school in a world where many children don't have that luxury.
I am thankful to live in a country where the government drives me crazy and I disagree with many of our policies. How lucky I am to be able to say that!
I am thankful for complaining that I never get a minute to myself, that my kids are driving me crazy, that I am sick and tired of never getting to sit down for a full meal without having to jump up and get something for someone. I have beautiful children who are healthy and full of life.
I am thankful for feeling sad when I miss my dearest friends, for knowing I can call or email them and just say I miss you, what are you doing, I can't wait to see you again.
I am thankful for feeling embarrassed about how I treated others in the past. I have the opportunity to reconcile and ask forgiveness, and, through the kindness of others, have been forgiven. I have been able to re-establish old friendships. Is there anything better than being given another chance?
So, what do I have to be thankful for? I think the better question is what do I have to not be thankful for. I can't think of one thing.